Homesick

Today I talked to my sister on the phone and it really made me miss her and the rest of my family who I sadly no longer live with. I mean she and most of my family are only like 15 minutes away, but my brother is a good half hour away. I long for the days when I could see one of any of them with the snap if my fingers. There was once a time, when I was a young teenager and stupid and irresponsible, when I didn't care as much for family; at least, I never showed it. I was a self-centered teenager. But over the past few years we have become closer than ever and right now I am missing my family. Sure being an adult is okay - living on your own in a way. But why can't I have my cake and eat it too? lol. I can't wait for the day when I can live with my soon-t0-be newest member of my family and hopefully live even closer to my fam. And hopefully that day isn't too far off. I was not joking that I proposed to Stefan that someday if I do become successful, we need to take a cue from some of those Lakeshore houses and build two homes on one property. Perfect. :) I feel kinda like I took for granted living with my sister and best friend and her amazing family that is mine too. And it would definitely make things much easier is my big brother also lived out this way. When I get these homesick feelings if sadness and longing, I miss them all and want one or all with me. I hate that I get this way, that right now I feel like crying because I am in fact homesick for all of those who don't hurt me, who never turn me away, who don't put me down, and who truly love me unconditionally.