Didn't think it would ever happen that the man I love, the one I am supposed to be with forever, would yell and swear at me like that. Kinda makes you wonder what's next in store from him.
I also never fathomed that selfishness on his part could so ruin my Saturday and make me cry more tears than I thought possible. How am I alone, laying in the dark at 8:11 pm on a Saturday? How can he say that he doesn't want to see me?
Kinda makes me think of how little I matter to some people. Kinda makes me want to do stupid things. And it would serve him right. Though, it isn't as if he would care. Somehow he is always the victim, the martyr. Why does he stay with me if I'm so terrible, so "mean"?
I don't understand anything right now; least of all why I am being punished for having my feelings hurt.
Right now I just need to go somewhere dark and quiet and be alone. I can feel the tears threatening to emerge again even now.
Who knows what people are capable of anymore...
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